I can feel it watching me.  I know that it's there.  It's always there.  It's a part of me and it's outside of me.  I know that it's protecting me... in its own way.  However, I'm a big girl.  I can take care of myself.  There's this new boy, Selik, in town and I like him.  He's not like the others.  He listens to me and he's funny.  There's an easy-going nature to him that is extremely attractive.  Why won't it let me enjoy my time with Selik?  What is it afraid of?