When you covet something so much, it has a power over you. It has control over you. You think that it's yours and you are the master. How wrong you are. You are the slave and it holds all power over you. How do you break free of that bond? How do you not show anger to anyone who make take your possession away? How do you not lose yourself? I don't know. I just know that I have to control this addiction before I can continue on with my life.