I tried my best.  However, it doesn't seem that my best was good enough.  They left me here to deal with the pain of my failure.  This is a good place for me.  I deserve it.  All I know is that I just want to be left alone.  I don't want anyone to be dependent on me.  I just want to be left here to die.  I'm not going to help anymore if all I do is cause pain.  I'm happy here... I guess...