They told me that it would be right here!  The answers to what I was looking for!  They didn't lie to me!  They couldn't have lied to me!  Me?!?  Not me!  But, I don't see it.  I don't see what I need to get me back on track.   To make me happy.  I just don't see it.  All I see is that skull.  That "thing" that just laughs at me... just like everyone else. That thing that mocks me.  

I just don't know what to do now.  I'm tired of listening to everybody else.  I'm just tired.  Guess that that old man was right.  I have to start listening to myself and trust my instincts.  No-one is going to get me out of this mess but me.  There's no great power that's going to help me.  Time to start relying on myself rather than someone else.